Wednesday, September 08, 2004 @9/08/2004 02:03:00 am
okay....first ever serious post....
I just had the itch to blog...really happy with ma new skin...hehehe....
on a more serious note, Ive been reading other people's blogs (i won't say who...privacy reasons) and got shocked at how friends from my ex school are....well..."sleeping around" to put it bluntly...it's like, coming from a place where everything was so uptight and conservative...i'm surprised that pple actually do it u know? No matter how much the school drove us nuts with how it's bad for you and the STDs and with the abortion thing....i couldn't sleep well for 3 days or smth after the abortion thing....plus the shock factor with the graphics of gonnorea (sp?) and stuff...cause i took bio a long while back, i HAD to know about these stuff...and how pple have babies and such...
anyway...a close friend of mine...well...i guess not that close anymore...since i didn't know she was attatched...and i didn't know she slept with the guy....so...it was quite a shock, though i had a feeling she'd do so...since she's...well..."americanized"....but...now that i think about it....maybe it's just me but...sleeping around is just...wrong....even if it's ur bf...cause i always think that girls always lose out in the end...
think about it...girl sleeps with guy...if, and IF the girl gets pregnant, the guy can just walk off and say "it's not mine...how would i know whether it's mine...you could be sleeping around for all i know..." then refuse to get a DNA test...cause these things need consent....then IF the guy doesn't have a conscience...he'd just leave the girl in the lurch....then what happens? Young single mothers sprouting out all over the place...plus the abandoned children part...and i think u can guess what will happen after that....
So...i dunno...maybe cause i'm not pro-relationships....BGRs i mean....so i have a really bad impression of guys....i don't believe in BGRs, love...much less marriage....i mean, im better off by myself than trusting some shithead of a man who just wants sex u know? From what i've heard, guys absolutely CANNOT control themselves....and they think with their...*ahem* most of the time...so u wouldn't know when they guy wants to "get it on"......again, maybe it's just me...but most pple i know already have bfs...and.....they'll come together and talk about bfs and stuff....and i'll be the quiet one that doesn't know a damn thing about relationships...mainly cause...well, i don't care....though sometimes it bothers me that i'm "abnormal" so to speak...since almost all the time all the girls ever talk about is guys and boyfriends....so...funny as this sounds...
i rather game. really. I rather be kickin' ass at home or smth...see heads blown off and stuff....or be sleeping since i don't get enough of that all the time...i mean, sure....u have a guy, they pamper u and lavish u with gifts....if the guy's older, u can spend all his money and dump him....but...what's the point? If u have the means to earn the money and get what u want, why depend on a guy to get it for you? Have some independence mannnn....
anywayyyy...that's besides the point. It's just shocking that..well...people are sleeping around...especially in a quite conservative singapore....i was reading in the papers that indonesia's contemplating giving life sentences to pple who kiss in public or dance erotically....i was like "HAH??"...maybe it's cause of the strict culture and religion there...but i guess that's the real difference between asian and western culture...conservatism...if there's such a word in the first place...
I was reading another person's blog on how shes really sleeping around and stuff...and being proud of it...and she was able to explicitly describe her...well.."adventures" sometimes....my eyeballs literally dropped out and rolled all over the place for a while before i could get myself together...
Then again, people already knew what she was like, so i guess this girl i wasn't too surprised....but to be actually "proud" of it....wow...i dunno...it just seems wrong...and the funny thing is, she writes VERY well....and she reads and immerses herself in things that normal 18 year olds wouldn't...which is admirable actually, since she matured much faster by doing so....though i have a feeling she's doing all this to attract the ang mohs since they like "freshness" and intelligance and maturity in a woman....by making an effort to do so, she got results man....so...i guess good for her...
I think u can roughly guess who i'm talking about right now, but i'm not telling who since i don't think i'm suppose to be reading her blog...i just happened to come across it and was impressed by her style of writing that's all...and i have a feeling she doesn't like me..so...all the more i shouldn't have "intruded"...oh well...i'm a blog addict (love reading blogs, hate updating them syndrome, i think u understand ;))
Oh well...enough shock for a night...there is much to do on my to do list....so i better get crackin...
Tuesday, September 07, 2004 @9/07/2004 06:00:00 am
*Sigh*
okay...i have ALOT of explaining to do...here goes...
People have been bugging me to get a blog for a longggg while....but truth be told, I already had an existing one for a longgg while which i don't update for like MONTHS....so i didn't see the point telling everyone my addy and letting them see the same post all the time...plus the fact that i had a really sucky skin for a longgggg while that i didn't bother to change...so the more i looked at it, the more i hated it...only thing left i liked was the addy i had...cynically insane...haahaa...
anyway...so i got bored and really frustrated by my work since i was at it the whole day earlier on...so i went to see whether there were better skins since the ONLY website i know that has blog skins is blogskins.com...and most of the skins there are sucky...so i didn't have much hope of getting one anyway.....plus the fact that i am TOTALLY html illiterate...i can't personalise skins...which makes things much much harder...
so out of like a few hundred skins i seived through, i found 7 i like ( i know, miserly number and these were'nt all that great...i just lowered my standards ALOT)...and then POOF. These linkin park few came along...i was like O M G, these are FANTASTIC!! there's like a series...one with this eyeball..one with the woman from breaking the habit...and another one with a sketchy chester....was really really torn between these 3....(mind you, i NEVER get torn between skins before...it's more like which is the most "ok" enough skin therefore i chuck it there, so it was sorta like a miracle)...so i finally chose this eyeball one, mainly cause i LOVE blue...and like i've probably said before, i have this strange fascination for eyeballs...so...here it is...though i really hate the way the maker placed the stuff....posts should be in the middle not at the side....archives should be at the side...so i think it's quite screwed up, but i dunno how to change it, so i'm stuck with this...which isn't too shabby either since i ABSOLUTELY love the background...wow...hope is reborn for finding fantastic skins once again!! *hears angels singing haaaaallelujah*
a word of caution though...i don't think i'll be updating regularly....so it maybe months, weeks, days before i give an update...mainly cause sometimes, blogs are a pain to update...i love reading blogs, it's the updating that will get to you u know? Especially when you have nothing to say...aww man, that's the worse....
So...here it is...i'm making it "public" sort of to my friends...this'll probably be my ranting ground now...so watch the language...NC-18 folks...seeya around and drop me a msg...i dunno whether my tagboard is working...*ulp*
@9/07/2004 05:52:00 am
*sigh*
Okay...testing one two three...i hope this is ok....